I really dislike it when people force so much on you, and they only expect the best of the best from you. Especially when it's a combination of efforts. I'm already being crushed under the weight of my own burdens, be it personal, academic, or whatever aspect of life, but people just drop their own loads on me, expecting me to solve or do everything by myself. I try so hard to keep a calm and patient demeanor, but time ticks away and sometimes my patience wears thin, along with my stamina and strength. Most of the time, I really just want to snap. But I can't.
I need to hold myself together. For my sake? Maybe. But it's mostly for other people's sake. Sigh.
I especially dislike it when they blame you for all your efforts, even if you are the only one who actually stayed focused throughout the whole ordeal. It's a combined effort, as I said up there. I'm not the only one who's supposed to be slaving away. I can't be blamed for the things that go wrong. At least I try. It wouldn't be my fault if I'm the only one trying.
Ughh I'm not supposed to be complaining, but geez. I'm tired and sick of feeling that way. Give me a break, yes? :)
Hi! I've recently discovered your blog, and I hope you won't mind me reading about your, um, life. But yeah, I just want you to know that you do have a right to complain. And I admire that you continue to hold your anger in, even if you're the "abused" one. You're not the only one in school who feels the same way. :)
ReplyDeleteHello! It's alright, really. This blog is public anyway. :)) Thank you for your sympathy. I do hope that things will get better for the both of us. :)
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